How could this happen to me..?

aiyoo why like this geh
cant go in the things i read
feel like too long no study d cant go in at all
aihhhhhhh
doshiooooo~?
exam so near
if this time i get so low marks i reli hav no confidence to study anymore..
izit too many things that are distracting me?
but still..so sad cant rmb most of the thing that i read..
long time no post here
busy with my life esp outing n homework
miss my frens n school so much..
='(
my pocket tight till die lo..
my dad haven gimme pocket money till now..again
its middle of month lo n i haven pay a single fee
even sometimes dun hav the money to eat in canteen..
i hav no choice but to self pity when i have not even 1 cent in my pocket..
aih..
being a student is the poorest moment in my life
even when im working aso not that poor..
no money pay tuition
no money eat
no money fill petrol
no money pay coco fees
no money buy stationaries
no money photostat or print things
no money do activities
no money reload (this one is normal la cuz always few months reload 1 time..no money=( )
no money buy groceries back home
no money buy food for family
so sad whenever feel like treating them but feel so helpless that ive no money to do so..
but this month i dun feel like asking from dad cuz last month he has no salary..
but this happen many times
many times he gav me a month then 2 months no gimme cuz he wil feel like he gives me not long ago(even though its been 1 month)
so everytime when he gimme a proper sum for my pocket money for a month, i must make sure i can survive til another more month..
so hard..TT
nowadays things so expensive..
last time my bro got 300bucks from dad every month
though his tt more than me mayb 70bucks more
but everything rises price latterally
isnt it the same?
but why cant him gimme every month like he did to bro too?
TT
luckily bro un my feeling..
but i duwan him to cover those expenses for him..
cuz he juz started working sure not much money ma..(though he has  an iphone== xD)
aih..stil wondering tmr how go outing with them..
my hand left only 10cent
hav u been like this bfor?

sadnyerr..TT addcited to it Beast's Fiction!!