How could this happen to me..?

aiyoo why like this geh
cant go in the things i read
feel like too long no study d cant go in at all
aihhhhhhh
doshiooooo~?
exam so near
if this time i get so low marks i reli hav no confidence to study anymore..
izit too many things that are distracting me?
but still..so sad cant rmb most of the thing that i read..
long time no post here
busy with my life esp outing n homework
miss my frens n school so much..
='(
my pocket tight till die lo..
my dad haven gimme pocket money till now..again
its middle of month lo n i haven pay a single fee
even sometimes dun hav the money to eat in canteen..
i hav no choice but to self pity when i have not even 1 cent in my pocket..
aih..
being a student is the poorest moment in my life
even when im working aso not that poor..
no money pay tuition
no money eat
no money fill petrol
no money pay coco fees
no money buy stationaries
no money photostat or print things
no money do activities
no money reload (this one is normal la cuz always few months reload 1 time..no money=( )
no money buy groceries back home
no money buy food for family
so sad whenever feel like treating them but feel so helpless that ive no money to do so..
but this month i dun feel like asking from dad cuz last month he has no salary..
but this happen many times
many times he gav me a month then 2 months no gimme cuz he wil feel like he gives me not long ago(even though its been 1 month)
so everytime when he gimme a proper sum for my pocket money for a month, i must make sure i can survive til another more month..
so hard..TT
nowadays things so expensive..
last time my bro got 300bucks from dad every month
though his tt more than me mayb 70bucks more
but everything rises price latterally
isnt it the same?
but why cant him gimme every month like he did to bro too?
TT
luckily bro un my feeling..
but i duwan him to cover those expenses for him..
cuz he juz started working sure not much money ma..(though he has  an iphone== xD)
aih..stil wondering tmr how go outing with them..
my hand left only 10cent
hav u been like this bfor?

sadnyerr..TT addcited to it Beast's Fiction!!

98º - My Everything

tooo sweeet jor..
the lyrics super meaningful n sweet..X)
epic song=D

David Cook: The Last Song I'll Write For You - Top 4 Results - AMERICAN ...

DAVID COOKKKKKK!!!!!X)

School holiday!

So fast jau school hols. Soolee is going back to kampar..=(
chisan aso..TT..
recently so many things happened..especially the ones that need me to make decisions..the hard ones..
i felt so desperate when it happened..
i cant follow my own true choice but other ppls choice..
its somehow like being locked down..
so far still ok in studies..but i reli dun like pa..so political==
physics kinda confusing..=(
today went for pa tuition
waa karu ar real yi zhi bang! Sugoi! he makes me want more xD

we wil b going out soon! To watch snow white=D
then aso got gathering with kieran they all for men in black! N later on wanna go for GI Joe heheeeee
xD but i wil study hard in this hols.
i wont lose again. Never!
gar yau!! X)

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Beginning of Form6 Life=)

today was my first day in st.michael institution
get caught cuz i haven cut my hair? lol
i stil hav no idea which subject to choose..
biology that i have more interest or physics that is easier to score?


i saw him..
n he saw me..
n i told myself..not, my heart told me
that i will continue loving him until we are truely apart
though it sounds so silly but thats what my heart wants..
i have no objection after my heart struggled for so long that it still staying loyal to him
i will not regret doing this n im certain=)
i wanna stay by his side..does this lead me to take physics instead of biology?
perhaps its in the storyline of my story that He made for me=)
thank you for choosing this for me..=)
love both of u's =D

Battleship with big apple!!

today went watch battleship with kahwai tap n chua
reli awesome!
my rm10 worth it. hahaha
bfor that we ate sushi^^
n aso bought 6 pieces of big apple!
but too bad durian one finished d..=(
we took turns to capture our photo with the box of big apple LOL
XD
but until now i have only left rm10 with me..
how to survive for half a month more?!
hahahahaha XD
then when chua was sending us home real dangerous
its raining plus thundering..
he hit a bumper of dunno whose car n heret till his house..
=(
then i send tap home n bring kahwai back my home and his mum came fetch him.
today was nice!=D
nex outing will be with joc!
=D

David Cook- I don't want to miss a thing

he sang perfectly!! love him so much er TT

Set My Mind Up

i wont wait for u any longer..
this is my final decision
i wont regret
cuz waiting will stop u from moving foward
n aso its kinda useless
hope that i will not be in the same class with u in form6..
so that i dont have the chance to look at u more
n aso be with u more..
maybe i really haven meet the rite person=)
thx for taking care of me all the time..
i will rmb ur kindness towards me=)
ur soft hand..
hahahahaha 
take care ya..=)
hope that u will fade from my mind n aso my heart soon
real soon..

Hailor.. i admit== what a troublesome me..aih~

‎5.【双子座】 (5月22日 - 06月21日)
双子有时候疯疯癲癲，有时非常严肃，有时候根本搞不懂自己想干嘛。讨厌别人不信任和误会，遇到不开心的事会憋在心底，就算多不开心，也还是笑面迎人。心底的话很少跟别人说，不是不想说，而是不知道怎麼说，就算说了别人还是怎麼也不懂自己的想法。双子座还是只有双子座的人才懂。

偏执、悲观、轻微强迫癥，白天理性，夜晚感性，白天坚强，夜晚脆弱。往往有点不可理喻，有点可爱，有点任性。心计不多，闹完了兇完了，不记仇，心胸宽广，只是别激怒了她。爱上时，飞蛾扑火。不爱时，寡言冷漠。我是无畏於心，无悔於情的双子座，为自己骄傲地活著。

脾气有点大、表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕！性格矛盾分裂、自尊强大，太现实、认真、看问题太透，孤独、缺乏安全感、自闭、忧鬱，爱太深、比较容易受伤、受伤就选择逃避，喜欢乱想、想太多、爱纠结、超倔强。

双子们的笑永远都是最简单的、无论什麼时候你都会看见一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人、却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他不喜欢在别人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪时、那麼说明你是真的把双子的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得依赖的依靠。

当双子座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；
当双子座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；
当双子座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；
当双子座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。但你不能说双子座为什麼会那麼傻，这只是双子座爱人的一种方式。

双子座、敢爱敢恨、爱笑爱闹、情绪化，容易与世界打成一片、也能安静地让旁人发现不了自己的存在，心情不好时、躲在属於自己的安全角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来疼、来安慰，双子座、一直都是个真性情的孩子。虽然喜欢结交异性、但爱只会给一个人、付出不需要有结果，也正因为太认真了、就很容易受伤、也很敏感，虽然表面是冷漠的、无顾忌的、但内心永远永远只忠於一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人、也要坚持守到最后一刻。

最註重的就是安全感，希望被保护，却常常是一个人，双子不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深，双子是个很爱撒娇的孩子，总是很依赖别人，双子喜欢海，喜欢自怜，喜欢自己舔伤口，双子性格很古怪而又孤僻，他们会突然在大笑中沉默，感觉悲伤。

一半明朗一半忧伤，一半冷漠一半热情，对陌生人无视，对不熟的人外热内冷，遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感，会害羞，有时很霸道，强烈的佔有慾，怕麻烦，所以不喜欢和人搞曖昧，把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏，选择慢慢雕琢，细细品位，似乎都看起来傻傻的，但这是一种自我保护方式。

有人说双子座分手的很无情，但有谁知道、当双子断绝来往的时候已经準备了多久！你给他们的伤害太多了、双子也是人、不是冷血动物，如果双子準备跟你分手、爱著双子的人应该好好想想你把他伤得有多深，其实双子很包容、甚至爱你的时候连自己的性格都愿意为对方改变，这..只有爱过的双子才知道。

其实身边很多人都不瞭解双子座、很多时候的好心总是被人误解，用心的付出、用心的爱却总是被别人浪费、嘲笑。双子一个人的时候才是真正的自己、一个人旅行才能获得真正的快乐。
偏执、悲观、轻微强迫癥，白天理性，夜晚感性，白天坚强，夜晚脆弱。往往有点不可理喻，有点可爱，有点任性。心计不多，闹完了兇完了，不记仇，心胸宽广，只是别激怒了她。爱上时，飞蛾扑火。不爱时，寡言冷漠。我是无畏於心，无悔於情的双子座，为自己骄傲地活著。

脾气有点大、表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕！性格矛盾分裂、自尊强大，太现实、认真、看问题太透，孤独、缺乏安全感、自闭、忧鬱，爱太深、比较容易受伤、受伤就选择逃避，喜欢乱想、想太多、爱纠结、超倔强.

双子们的笑永远都是最简单的、无论什麼时候你都会看见一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人、却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他不喜欢在别人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪时、那麼说明你是真的把双子的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得依赖的依靠。
当双子座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；当双子座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；当双子座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；当双子座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。但你不能说双子座为什麼会那麼傻，这只是双子座爱人的一种方式。

双子座、敢爱敢恨、爱笑爱闹、情绪化，容易与世界打成一片、也能安静地让旁人发现不了自己的存在，心情不好时、躲在属於自己的安全角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来疼、来安慰，双子座、一直都是个真性情的孩子。虽然喜欢结交异性、但爱只会给一个人、付出不需要有结果，也正因为太认真了、就很容易受伤、也很敏感，虽然表面是冷漠的、无顾忌的、但内心永远永远只忠於一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人、也要坚持守到最后一刻。

最註重的就是安全感，希望被保护，却常常是一个人，双子不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深，双子是个很爱撒娇的孩子，总是很依赖别人，双子喜欢海，喜欢自怜，喜欢自己舔伤口，双子性格很古怪而又孤僻，他们会突然在大笑中沉默，感觉悲伤。

一半明朗一半忧伤，一半冷漠一半热情，对陌生人无视，对不熟的人外热内冷，遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感，会害羞，有时很霸道，强烈的佔有慾，怕麻烦，所以不喜欢和人搞曖昧，把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏，选择慢慢雕琢，细细品位，似乎都看起来傻傻的，但这是一种自我保护方式。

有人说双子座分手的很无情，但有谁知道、当双子断绝来往的时候已经準备了多久！你给他们的伤害太多了、双子也是人、不是冷血动物，如果双子準备跟你分手、爱著双子的人应该好好想想你把他伤得有多深，其实双子很包容、甚至爱你的时候连自己的性格都愿意为对方改变，这..只有爱过的双子才知道。

其实身边很多人都不瞭解双子座、很多时候的好心总是被人误解，用心的付出、用心的爱却总是被别人浪费、嘲笑。双子一个人的时候才是真正的自己、一个人旅行才能获得真正的快乐。偏执、悲观、轻微强迫癥，白天理性，夜晚感性，白天坚强，夜晚脆弱。往往有点不可理喻，有点可爱，有点任性。心计不多，闹完了兇完了，不记仇，心胸宽广，只是别激怒了她。爱上时，飞蛾扑火。不爱时，寡言冷漠。我是无畏於心，无悔於情的双子座，为自己骄傲地活著。脾气有点大、表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕！性格矛盾分裂、自尊强大，太现实、认真、看问题太透，孤独、缺乏安全感、自闭、忧鬱，爱太深、比较容易受伤、受伤就选择逃避，喜欢乱想、想太多、爱纠结、超倔强。

双子们的笑永远都是最简单的、无论什麼时候你都会看见一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人、却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他不喜欢在别人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪时、那麼说明你是真的把双子的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得依赖的依靠。

当双子座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；当双子座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；当双子座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；当双子座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。但你不能说双子座为什麼会那麼傻，这只是双子座爱人的一种方式。

双子座、敢爱敢恨、爱笑爱闹、情绪化，容易与世界打成一片、也能安静地让旁人发现不了自己的存在，心情不好时、躲在属於自己的安全角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来疼、来安慰，双子座、一直都是个真性情的孩子。虽然喜欢结交异性、但爱只会给一个人、付出不需要有结果，也正因为太认真了、就很容易受伤、也很敏感，虽然表面是冷漠的、无顾忌的、但内心永远永远只忠於一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人、也要坚持守到最后一刻。最註重的就是安全感，希望被保护，却常常是一个人，双子不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深，双子是个很爱撒娇的孩子，总是很依赖别人，双子喜欢海，喜欢自怜，喜欢自己舔伤口，双子性格很古怪而又孤僻，他们会突然在大笑中沉默，感觉悲伤。一半明朗一半忧伤，一半冷漠一半热情，对陌生人无视，对不熟的人外热内冷，遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感，会害羞，有时很霸道，强烈的佔有慾，怕麻烦，所以不喜欢和人搞曖昧，把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏，选择慢慢雕琢，细细品位，似乎都看起来傻傻的，但这是一种自我保护方式。

有人说双子座分手的很无情，但有谁知道、当双子断绝来往的时候已经準备了多久！你给他们的伤害太多了、双子也是人、不是冷血动物，如果双子準备跟你分手、爱著双子的人应该好好想想你把他伤得有多深，其实双子很包容、甚至爱你的时候连自己的性格都愿意为对方改变，这..只有爱过的双子才知道。其实身边很多人都不瞭解双子座、很多时候的好心总是被人误解，用心的付出、用心的爱却总是被别人浪费、嘲笑。

双子一个人的时候才是真正的自己、一个人旅行才能获得真正的快乐。偏执、悲观、轻微强迫癥，白天理性，夜晚感性，白天坚强，夜晚脆弱。往往有点不可理喻，有点可爱，有点任性。心计不多，闹完了兇完了，不记仇，心胸宽广，只是别激怒了她。爱上时，飞蛾扑火。不爱时，寡言冷漠。我是无畏於心，无悔於情的双子座，为自己骄傲地活著。脾气有点大、表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕！性格矛盾分裂、自尊强大，太现实、认真、看问题太透，孤独、缺乏安全感、自闭、忧鬱，爱太深、比较容易受伤、受伤就选择逃避，喜欢乱想、想太多、爱纠结、超倔强。

双子们的笑永远都是最简单的、无论什麼时候你都会看见一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人、却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他不喜欢在别人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪时、那麼说明你是真的把双子的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得依赖的依靠。当双子座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；当双子座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；当双子座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；当双子座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。但你不能说双子座为什麼会那麼傻，这只是双子座爱人的一种方式。

双子座、敢爱敢恨、爱笑爱闹、情绪化，容易与世界打成一片、也能安静地让旁人发现不了自己的存在，心情不好时、躲在属於自己的安全角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来疼、来安慰，双子座、一直都是个真性情的孩子。虽然喜欢结交异性、但爱只会给一个人、付出不需要有结果，也正因为太认真了、就很容易受伤、也很敏感，虽然表面是冷漠的、无顾忌的、但内心永远永远只忠於一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人、也要坚持守到最后一刻。最註重的就是安全感，希望被保护，却常常是一个人，双子不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深，双子是个很爱撒娇的孩子，总是很依赖别人，双子喜欢海，喜欢自怜，喜欢自己舔伤口，双子性格很古怪而又孤僻，他们会突然在大笑中沉默，感觉悲伤。一半明朗一半忧伤，一半冷漠一半热情，对陌生人无视，对不熟的人外热内冷，遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感，会害羞，有时很霸道，强烈的佔有慾，怕麻烦，所以不喜欢和人搞曖昧，把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏，选择慢慢雕琢，细细品位，似乎都看起来傻傻的，但这是一种自我保护方式。

有人说双子座分手的很无情，但有谁知道、当双子断绝来往的时候已经準备了多久！你给他们的伤害太多了、双子也是人、不是冷血动物，如果双子準备跟你分手、爱著双子的人应该好好想想你把他伤得有多深，其实双子很包容、甚至爱你的时候连自己的性格都愿意为对方改变，这..只有爱过的双子才知道。其实身边很多人都不瞭解双子座、很多时候的好心总是被人误解，用心的付出、用心的爱却总是被别人浪费、嘲笑。双子一个人的时候才是真正的自己、一个人旅行才能获得真正的快乐。偏执、悲观、轻微强迫癥，白天理性，夜晚感性，白天坚强，夜晚脆弱。往往有点不可理喻，有点可爱，有点任性。心计不多，闹完了兇完了，不记仇，心胸宽广，只是别激怒了她。爱上时，飞蛾扑火。不爱时，寡言冷漠。我是无畏於心，无悔於情的双子座，为自己骄傲地活著。脾气有点大、表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕！性格矛盾分裂、自尊强大，太现实、认真、看问题太透，孤独、缺乏安全感、自闭、忧鬱，爱太深、比较容易受伤、受伤就选择逃避，喜欢乱想、想太多、爱纠结、超倔强。

双子们的笑永远都是最简单的、无论什麼时候你都会看见一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人、却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他不喜欢在别人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪时、那麼说明你是真的把双子的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得依赖的依靠。当双子座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；当双子座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；当双子座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；当双子座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。但你不能说双子座为什麼会那麼傻，这只是双子座爱人的一种方式。

双子座、敢爱敢恨、爱笑爱闹、情绪化，容易与世界打成一片、也能安静地让旁人发现不了自己的存在，心情不好时、躲在属於自己的安全角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来疼、来安慰，双子座、一直都是个真性情的孩子。虽然喜欢结交异性、但爱只会给一个人、付出不需要有结果，也正因为太认真了、就很容易受伤、也很敏感，虽然表面是冷漠的、无顾忌的、但内心永远永远只忠於一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人、也要坚持守到最后一刻。最註重的就是安全感，希望被保护，却常常是一个人，

双子不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深，双子是个很爱撒娇的孩子，总是很依赖别人，双子喜欢海，喜欢自怜，喜欢自己舔伤口，双子性格很古怪而又孤僻，他们会突然在大笑中沉默，感觉悲伤。一半明朗一半忧伤，一半冷漠一半热情，对陌生人无视，对不熟的人外热内冷，遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感，会害羞，有时很霸道，强烈的佔有慾，怕麻烦，所以不喜欢和人搞曖昧，把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏，选择慢慢雕琢，细细品位，似乎都看起来傻傻的，但这是一种自我保护方式。

有人说双子座分手的很无情，但有谁知道、当双子断绝来往的时候已经準备了多久！你给他们的伤害太多了、双子也是人、不是冷血动物，如果双子準备跟你分手、爱著双子的人应该好好想想你把他伤得有多深，其实双子很包容、甚至爱你的时候连自己的性格都愿意为对方改变，这..只有爱过的双子才知道。其实身边很多人都不瞭解双子座、很多时候的好心总是被人误解，用心的付出、用心的爱却总是被别人浪费、嘲笑。双子一个人的时候才是真正的自己、一个人旅行才能获得真正的快乐。

=D

Sei-kun!
im stil not over you..
watashiwa anata o aishi tsudzukemashou..
maji! watashiwa dai suki des! 
tadashi anatawa nanimo iwanai
demo , watashiwa akirameru koto wa arimasen!
ano..
shikashi , watashiwa nani mo shimasen
daijobu..shinpaishinaidekudasai=)

neh.. saikin ogenkideska?
hisashiburi neh..
 

SADDD

STIL SO SAD ER ABOUT MY RESULTS..
WHY MUST IT BE ME?!
AIHHH DUNNO LAH..SO SAD ER
CHISAN GOT 5A'S 4B'S 
DOU GU DOU GELAH SHES SO GENG ONE
WAA RELI SAD AR FEEL LIKE IZIT RELI MINE?
AIHHHHHH DUN CARE LA STPM GET 3.8 THEN ENUF XD
BUT STIL DUNNO WAT TO CHOOSE..
PHYSICS CHEMI OR BIO CHEMI OR ARTS INSTEAD?
ARHHH!!
ARCHITECTURE?
FINANCE?
OR SCIENCE FIELD?
DIM SHUEN?!!
1 MORE MONTH TO GO LOH FAST FAST DECIDE!
BUT DUNNO LAH..
SIEN LOR
AIHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
HOU SEONG SUM ARRR....

Form6, i will take u down!!

I DONT CARE ANYMORE!

I WANT TO GET 3A'S ABOVE FOR FORM6!!

THATS MY TARGET N I WIL ACHIEVE IT NO MATTER HOW!!

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

N IVE PREPARED TO LIVE A BORING LIFE FOR THESE 2 YEARS AHEAD

-ive prepared to be a nerd xD

-no more always outing n yes for study everyday when back home, dont care i can rmb til stpm anot but i wil read aso juz to make me no regrets after take my stpm results=)

-hope that i wont be coo-coo hahahaha cant wait to see how i look if im diligent xD

but until now im stil undecided to take wat subject XD

i heard zheng probably wil choose physics chemi..sad lo if i choose bio chemi..not same class lor=(

i juz feel sad imagining if hes close to some girls else..

First Shock of my life

today i took my spm results
guess wat i had?
3As6Bs
not 6As3Bs
3As!!
reli?maji?hontoni?
its been 13 hours since i took my results n now i stil cant believe this..
but i hav to accept it..cuz i can do nothing..
recheck sure no use one. waste money
i got:
bm - B+
bi - A
moral - B?!
sejarah - B?!
mm - A
addmaths - A-
physics - B+?!
chemi - B+
bio - B
those with (?!) reli cant believe!
i know i can get A for those after i did my exam
nowadays reli.. i heard a news about gov..
dunno la but this year reli quite unusual
alot of them so geng aso dropped..
dunno lah! 
juz wanna say I AM TRUELY DISAPPOINTED WITH THE RESULTS!! but not reli to myself cuz im sure i worked reli hard..real hard


ya my full a spree had ended yesterday. just like soolee xD
same place mati xD
but me mati more teruk hahahaha jkjk ;D
but i was quite hapi that my dad din stab me much. but he some kind of console me=D
indirectly lah hahahaha cuz he wil never directly do it so


i am reli reli sad er..i tot i can get better results for hoongkee's bday..
hapi birthday to him! 
but i couldnt make it..sorry..
i cant get flying colours anymore..
not even can smell the smoke of flying colours==
today the first person i contact with was big bro
hahahaha cuz he wil console me n support me one=)
my mood went better after he talked to me
n he invited me to go kl this sat to meet with sis aso
i think im going x)
long time no see sis n aso bro..
i was so scare to tell dad n bro-->hoongkee after knew my results
cuz: dad wil stab me n bro wil scold me
hahahaha both aso hurt xD


hapi for kahwai n joc
kahwai finally beat chua after trying for so long=)
but chua reli is a type of legend xD
joc got 5As!
bm A+ somemore wor geng loh
bm reli hard to get a in gov exam one..
n im hapi that i helped her with her maths reli paid off!
i stayed back for her er T^T =D
shes reli hapi with it. n i feel glad for her too=)
but when i looked at myself..aih..!


so sad today i saw zheng..
but i din talk to him n not even stay close to him..
the first time i saw him in school jau saw him n his gang with yh already..
straight away my mood dropped into -1
at first also already so sad with my results n feel like so ashame to see him
but after seeing him around her..lagi no mood to even watching over him..
actually i hope to get better results than her this time..
one of my hardwork aso bcuz of this
but..seemed like i failed
so..shes better for u..
so..mayb its a good thing that i got these results?
so that i can make this as one of the reasons to let him go..
u deserve better..
i actually wished to b consoled by him..cuz he can do the best for this..
but he din come to me..
still so sad..=( TT..

Jin Akanishi's sun burns down

love the music!
his voice is quite good=)
go japan!=D

Arhhh

I love takano san soooooo much!!
too handsome jor n aso soooooooooo sweet er him x)
yukina aso so handsome er x)
but takano is the best! XD

But based on these two stories (junjou romantica n sekai ichi hatsukoi) i like the most is usagi n misaki that pair!
then only takano n ritsu
aww they melts my heart!
if this person reli exist then good lor. But i duwan him to b a gay in reality xD

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最後の言葉

ええと..これが私の最後のワード..


わたしは、あなたが好きです..チョンジャ鄭
好きです...
あなたはとても心優しいです..
ほんとにすみませね..そして
ありがとう..
じゃね..=)

Hisashiburi ne~=D

its been a long time!

recently many things happened

i went genting with supian kahwai weileong tap nick waimeng(?) choiyean kie jiahui and unexpectedly stella LOL

i did try to treat her well but she stepped on my nerves though , cant b helped

sry bout that.

me and suuuuu~=D

uh..for me its not really a very very fun trip..

plus i dun reli like genting all this time..

it reminds me of something..

but ive finally tasted startbucks!!

how expensive~TT

and i finally own a padini blouse!

i bought it for my mum's bday n i hav it too cuz buy 2 is cheaper

hooray for me for the first branded attire that i own!

but i was quite sad when at nite..

we were playing cards but they had a fight..

there shud not hav a fight!

its a trip guys!

i wil not say who rite and whos wrong

know ur own fault

think clearly whether if u did normally or did wrong

i was so..sad seeing them..

it suppose to b a fun nite that was so precious since we dont hav much opportunity..

enjoy without arguing , without fighting..!

actually i was quite lonely in that trip..

i feel like..was i not fitting in or..i just..hope that someone was there..?

dont care!

its no longer my matter..

nex is im gonna change job!

i hope that chadstone wil gimme a call!

kumon is no longer my place soon

but i wil miss chisan T^T and aso fitry XD

cehteng all the best lor XD

results almost come out..12 more days

i was quite scared after hearing my dad said the gov wanna take us chinese down by changing the real grade into the worst ones

he read it in newspaper that gov change those econ grades from A into F!

waa wth? so much difference of course so obvious la

30 ppl somemore==

use brain sikit la if wanna change aso==

but i feel kinda worried about our results too

will they change ours too?

NO!!~

shoste

i came to like yaoi stories nowadays

such as junjou romantica n sekai ichi hatsukoi

all thx to chisan brainwashed me==

XD

but its so so so sweet n romantic!!

i was quite pantang about gay

but..now i feel like its normal!!

NO~XD

im so hapi that i finished complete download my anime collection^^

shitsudeshimas

oyasuminasai , mina!^^

Kuroshitsuji forever!! x)

all of kuroshitsuji song aso so nice er..TT

Another day is ahead..

Currently stil working at kumon..stil haven done the homework xD
i got my P for car!=D luckily no nid to waste more money to retake.hehe
but id used all my first pay juz for this driving lesson == hav to dig my bank somemore total i used at least 600..TT
now stil haven practise to drive saga..

Ya i wanna change work..this sunday wanna stalk jusco for vacancy.
hopefully can get a better one la..like vincci but it only nid full time now..no more place..
i sure wil miss some of the students there..
junxian so cute er!! N cheechung..colten..karwai..jingxian..cheehyan..n aso changquan lol hes the most handsome guy in this centre xD cant believe hes juz form2=O
i still dunno how to tell mschan bout it..lol
she wil eat me up TT

Nex is..im goin to genting nex month 5th n 6th..
dun actually like genting but want to go out with them..at least a trip after spm though..
but i was so sad n disappointed..
cuz i tot i can finally go to a trip with him..
cuz he was quite delighted with my invitation at first
but then..he turn me down..cuz he wanna bring a lori of his frens along..
ya..i cant bring him hapiness huh..=)
i accepted this truth n trying to persuade myself
mayb its not a bad thing after all
hes at least safe at his home without going out for this trip..
ya its a good choice=D
at least ur safe..yokata..=D

So fast..27 more days n results will b out..
i dreamed that i get 3 or 2 bs of 5 subjects..
waa reli a nightmare..lol
hope it wil b way more better=)
Now chasing code geass. Reli superb!
its the first time i watch military type anime that is such amazing!
the author is juz so geng
every episode makes me wanna watch more!
its so tempting..sugoi!!
ja! Oyasuminasai!=D

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Some facts thats quite true XD

A REAL BOYFRIEND

Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.

I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.

Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.


When she stares at your mouth

Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she

thinks shes stronger than you

Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough

Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet

Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you

Give her your attention

When she pulls away

Pull her back

When you see her at her worst

Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying

Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking

Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared

Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie

Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you

Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time

reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt

Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you

she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands

Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;

bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret

keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes

dont look away until she does

When she says it's over

she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin

she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:

"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

Gone TT..

hes gone..TT
he went back juz now ahead to bahau in negeri9.
then only go back sabah
cuz he wanna celeb vday with her i think ;)
hahahaha hes my bro XD
aih talk bout vday tmr im officially guo valentine's day alone again=)
wish to go out with him but xun la..


yesterday went jusco with dad n bro.
suddenly i miss him..TT
reli wish to go out with him sure so syok^^
then we went yikfoong to stalk for his laptop bag n bought it for 25 only.
then saw my gang ;D
but i din call tap dyckson n kie
only kahwai n khongwei saw me
i din manage to go find supian as well x(


the day bfor yesterday went mamak stall with soolee in desa aman
n we 'accidently' passed by his mum's shop XD
at first i saw his mum quite ok de
but then soolee said shes quite looking fierce
then we once more pass by lor
then i see see har aso..abit fierce la
but not sure aso cuz i was shy to look at her cuz she always stared at us whenever we passed by
she knows us?=O XD
n i saw his grandma
i was thinking is she the one that he hates so much?
hahahahaha the clips incident XD
hahahahaahahahaha XDD
i still hav no idea why he hates her so much..


soolee said i haven giv up yet..LOL
do i?XD
dunno la..see la=)
sure so nice if we can together go shop groceries stuffs n food x)


yesterday midnite had a very nice starcraft with bro LOL XD
we almost dead (hes the one who almost dead XD)
ya he built his base on my base cuz his base was conquered by pc XD
but finally we won!
the glory was ours XD
luckily i insisted to continue playing ;D
n aso yesterday cs aso nice played with him 
hahahahaha 2 vs 6
LOLOLOL XD
nice game ;)


oh ya yesterday i passed my trial driving test
but i din go jalan d or e
cuz he said im good enuf for that so no nid to drive him there XD
but i was hoping to drive out cuz practise more is better ma
but i stil dunno why he put a cross for my gear part
i used suitable gear wat..==
but aso grateful that i passed!
thank God=D
but so heartache when i heard i nid to pay 100+ more for my P licence== TT
hav to dig my money again..;(
ya this friday hope that everything goes rite
cuz that day trial aso i was quite nervous XD
i think today morning hes busy mayb went for driving lesson?=)
cuz yesterday nite he slept so early n morning i din see him on
hehe im a real stalker XD


aiya now only i knew guilty crown is an ongoing series..
i shud watch other first but its reli nice x)
but now i dun reli like the current shu..he overuse his power x(
nex i wanna continue n finish working!! last time watch til episode 7.
now wanna watch conan ep.644 ;D


ja~